Bad Days

So, ugh, well, what do you do? When you feel like...ugh, well, that you don't know what you're doing. Or if you know what you're doing, then you don't know what you're doing it for. Or if you do know what you're doing and why you're doing it, then there's that horrible feeling that it'll never get done, or there's really no point in doing it at all or no one's going to appreciate your work, or...worst of all...no one will appreciate YOU. Well, I really don't know what to do on days where I feel any/all of the above. Other than just call a friend. There's really nothing else to do, because as I've learned over the last few years it's my brain that's the problem. It's actually creating all these thoughts that are so vicious and horrid, so why would I continue to try to use that very brain to solve the problem that it created in the first place? Well, I don't really know, but I do know that that's always what I try to do. But I'm learning, I'm PRACTICING doing something different. So when I call a friend, I get out of my brain's territory. And I get into the territory of my heart. Which is always happiest when it's touching someone else's heart. That's the only solution that I know of...so I'm going to do that. Right now. Because today, well, oy...yuck. I have discovered, yet once again, that I am human. Sigh...