Early Mornings

So, I've had to get up super early the last few days, various commitments, all in service of other people. And now, here it is, a morning I can sleep in...and I can't. Argggh, I say, argggh!!! However, it occurs to me that this is a pretty remarkable time. Before anyone else is up (well, that's pretty darn relative as most of great Los Angeles is indeed up as most people do have children and work proper jobs), and before the streets around my house start buzzing with their daily nonsensical activity. So, it's really a premiere time to get things done. Particularly to get creative things done. However, getting creative things done is hard. And early in the morning...wow, my bed is awesome. Soft. Warm. Comfortable. It's friggin' flannel I'm talking about here. So, to actually get up, put on socks AND slippers, wrap up in a blanket, go out to the living room, turn on my computer and the wee light, sit and try to work on my writing and my auditions...well, you might as well be asking me to hike Kilimanjaro. But here I am. Having done just that. How, may you ask? Well, I did what I did the previous few days. I had to get up because my presence at these various commitments was to help others. So, what if that's how I start looking at my work? That by writing and by acting I am indeed helping others. Helping others to see their story they've hired me to write in a clearer way? Helping others to see that part in that play in a different light? And not in a "oh, the world can't possibly function without me" kind of way. But in a "I get to participate in this life" kind of way. All I know is when I don't make it about me, I have an easier time of it. When I'm not the one who has to make it through my day, I have an easier time of it. When I let whatever power there is in the universe get my butt out of those awesome flannel sheets and duvee, I just have a better time of it. And that power, whatever it is, seems to work better when I'm not thinking about "what can I get today?" but instead "what can I give today?" So, just for today, I'm gonna go with that.