Love

So because of my post yesterday I got some "inquiries" from various friends asking if I was "okay". I explained that while indeed some of those things had happened to me recently, not all of those things had happened to me. That is was more of a "or" situation than an "and" situation, and that I was trying to be "inclusive" and also, it seems, "hypothetical". Regardless, the point is: I have people that care about me! And while that's been something that I've been blessed with my entire life, I've only recently been able to actually comprehend that fact. To actually physically feel that fact. I don't know what it is that keeps some of us from experiencing and accepting the love that people wish to share with us, give us, shower upon us. And I don't know why it is that I'm one of those people. But I do know that, despite my thoughts on the matter, there is a cold hard truth: people love. And they need a recipient of that love. So, in so very many ways, not accepting someone's love is a selfish act. It's always been said that humans need two things to survive, they need to be loved and to be needed. But I like Chuck Chamberlain's version: that what humans really need is to love and to do. Makes sense to me. And so, that means it is just as much my responsibility to receive love as it is to give it. But here's the rub: sometimes people don't love me the way I want them to love me. And sometimes they don't want to be loved the way that I want to love them. So, once again, I have to pay attention in these matters. And really, really make it an endeavor of mine to discern exactly how someone wants to be loved, as well as let people off the hook for loving the best that they can. We all are. Doing the best that we can. Just for today.